Rethinking My Dream: A Personal Journey of Self-Discovery
As I reflect on my experiences, I want to emphasize that this is my personal perspective, shaped by my values and beliefs. I do not intend to diminish the importance of medical professionals or STEM fields, but rather share my own story of growth and transformation.
The Allure of Medicine
For six years, I was determined to become a pediatric neurologist, driven by my passion for working with children and understanding the human brain. I advocated for young women to pursue STEM degrees, co-created lesson plans to inspire them, and spent a year as a research assistant in a psychophysiology lab. My enthusiasm for science remains unwavering to this day.
A Turning Point
Everything changed on Christmas morning when my mom was rushed to the ER. The diagnosis was Pulmonary Embolism, a “silent killer” caused by blood clots in her lungs. I was horrified by the misdiagnoses, lack of empathy, and negligence displayed by some medical professionals. My mom’s near-death experience raised questions about our healthcare system and the role of doctors.
A Crisis of Faith
As I witnessed my mom’s struggles, I began to doubt my own aspirations. Were all doctors so disconnected from their patients? Would I become like them? The experience shattered my idealized vision of being a healer and made me question the reality of the medical profession.
Reevaluating My Dreams
After my mom’s ordeal, I realized that my passion for science wasn’t enough to sustain me through the challenges of medical school and beyond. I needed emotional stability, tenacity, and a willingness to make personal sacrifices. I wasn’t willing to compromise my own happiness and well-being for the sake of a career.
A New Path Unfolds
I’ve come to accept that my passion for studying life cannot surpass my love for living it fully. I’ve redirected my energy towards photography and web development, seeking a balance between personal fulfillment and professional growth.
Embracing Change
I still support and admire individuals who pursue careers in medicine and STEM fields. However, I’ve learned that it’s essential to prioritize one’s own happiness and well-being. My journey has taught me that it’s okay to change direction and pursue a path that aligns with my values and aspirations.
A New Chapter Begins
As I navigate this new chapter, I’m excited to share my experiences, love for life, and passion for photography on Instagram. You can follow my journey and join me on hikes throughout California with my husband, Jaime, and our dog, Yogi.
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