The Weight of Debt and Dreams
A Financial Burden Shared
My boyfriend and I are on the same financial page, but our futures are about to take drastically different turns. I’m taking on $150,000 in debt to attend law school, while he’s debt-free, thanks to his medical school circumstances. Despite this significant disparity, he’s committed to supporting me through thick and thin.
A Decision Made with Heart and Head
Choosing Stanford Law School over other options wasn’t just about the prestige; it was about being close to my boyfriend and building a life together. While my debt might seem daunting, I know that my school’s excellent loan repayment program will help alleviate some of the burden. However, I’m aware that my career choices will impact our financial future together.
Rationalizing the Cost
I’ve convinced myself that pursuing a career in public interest fields will bring more fulfillment than a lucrative corporate job. But deep down, I know that my choices will affect our financial stability. My boyfriend’s stable income will eventually help pay off my debt, which can be a heavy emotional burden to carry.
The Guilt of Dependence
As someone who values financial independence, it’s hard for me to accept that my boyfriend will likely need to help me pay off my debt. I’ve always taken pride in standing on my own two feet, financially speaking. Now, I worry that my dependence on him will limit his own freedom to pursue his passions and dreams.
The Unequal Playing Field
Our relationship is built on mutual respect and trust, but the financial disparity between us creates tension. I know that my boyfriend’s income will always be higher than mine, which means that I’ll have to rely on him to achieve certain life goals, like owning an apartment. This realization can be difficult to swallow, especially for someone who values equality and independence.
Coming to Terms
I’m slowly accepting that the price of following my dreams is a hefty debt. While I’m confident that I could pay it off on my own, the reality is that my boyfriend will likely need to help. This doesn’t make me any less of a feminist or financially independent; it simply means that I’m acknowledging the privilege that enables my choices.
A Backup Plan and Honesty
As I navigate this complex emotional landscape, I know that I need to have a backup plan and be as self-reliant as possible. But most importantly, I need to be honest with myself, my boyfriend, and those around me about the privilege that allows me to pursue my dreams.
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