She Strengthens

Embracing Stability: Why I’m Breaking the Cycle of Constant Change

As the sweltering summer heat begins to subside, I find myself reflecting on the seasons of my life. For the past nine years, I’ve been in a perpetual state of transition, always preparing for the next adventure. But this year, something shifted. I realized that I’m exhausted – not just physically, but mentally and emotionally as well.

The Cycle of Escape

Looking back, I see that my constant moving was not just about seeking new experiences, but also about escaping my emotional insecurities and mental health struggles. I thought that each new place would bring a fresh start, a chance to reinvent myself. But the truth is, my struggles followed me wherever I went. I was running from myself, rather than facing my demons head-on.

Choosing My Mental Health

This year, I’ve made the decision to prioritize my mental health. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression, and I know that I need structure and consistency to manage my symptoms. By staying in Milwaukee, I can continue to see my therapist and work on building coping skills. It’s time for me to take responsibility for my well-being and stop using moving as a way to avoid my emotional baggage.

Choosing Financial Wellness

My decision to stay is also driven by my desire for financial stability. I’ve been living paycheck to paycheck, without health insurance, and with a mountain of debt. By taking a full-time position at my current job, I’ll gain a higher salary and benefits, which will allow me to focus on paying off my debt and building a safety net. This newfound financial security will directly impact my mental wellness, giving me the peace of mind I need to focus on my goals.

Choosing My Career

While my current job isn’t my dream role, it’s taught me valuable skills that will serve me well in my future career as a language teacher and entrepreneur. I’m using this experience as a stepping stone, acquiring new skills and knowledge that will help me achieve my goals. By staying in Milwaukee, I can continue to work towards my dream of opening my own language school.

Choosing Community

Finally, I’m choosing to nurture my relationships and build a community of supporters around me. I’ve had my share of toxic relationships and betrayals, which have fed into my anxiety and depression. By staying in Milwaukee, I can focus on building trust and fostering meaningful connections with others. This will help me combat my anxiety and provide a sense of belonging and purpose.

Settling Down, Not Settling Forever

Choosing to stay in Milwaukee doesn’t mean I’m giving up on my dreams of travel and adventure. It means I’m choosing to prioritize my well-being and stability for now. I know that I won’t stay in Milwaukee forever, but for now, it’s home. And by choosing myself, I’m taking a crucial step towards becoming the person I’m meant to be.