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The Trauma of Sirens: A Black Disabled Man’s Experience

As a Black disabled man living in a country built on systemic racism and ableism, I’m acutely aware of the fear that comes with hearing police sirens. The sound is a trigger, transporting me back to traumatic experiences of being pulled over, searched, and detained without cause. My heart races, my breath quickens, and anxiety washes over me.

A History of Oppression

The police force was created to subdue and control, particularly in the South, where its primary purpose was to capture and return runaway slaves to their white masters. This dark history is etched in my memory, passed down through stories from my elders. The pain of hearing “Don’t run, stop” is a constant reminder of the ancestral trauma that lingers.

The Siren’s Toll

The varying tones of police sirens evoke different emotions. The short cadence is reminiscent of being targeted by Confederate sympathizers, while the long, continuous siren signals pursuit, often without just cause. I recall the fear that gripped me as a 9-year-old, watching my father, a hardworking telecommunications professional, being harassed by an officer for simply stopping at a sign too long. The officer’s actions were a stark reminder that, in the eyes of the police, driving while Black is a crime.

Personal Encounters

I’ve had my share of terrifying encounters with the police. From being unlawfully detained and searched in a brand-new BMW to being forced out of a car because my metal canes reflected light into an officer’s eyes, I’ve experienced the brutality of police violence firsthand. These experiences have left an indelible mark on my mental health, triggering immediate distress whenever I hear police sirens.

Seeking Healing

Finding a mental health professional who understands the historical trauma of being Black and disabled has been a challenge. However, I’ve discovered that therapists of color and Black therapists can provide a safe space to unpack this trauma. Meditation has become my go-to self-care method, but acknowledging the mental strain is only half the battle.

A Call to Action

The recent worldwide coverage of police violence, from Breonna Taylor to George Floyd, highlights the need for change. The modern police force, largely composed of white men with little training in policing minority communities, continues to perpetuate violence and oppression. It’s time to divest from imperialist, corrupt police systems and invest in organizations that protect Black lives. I urge you to keep reading, to learn about the importance of defunding police and supporting organizations that prioritize Black lives. Together, we can create a safer, more just society.