Chasing Dreams: When Passion Meets Reality
Growing up, I had a singular focus: becoming a Broadway actress. I lived and breathed musicals, memorizing lyrics and performing for anyone who would watch. My parents still chuckle about my early ambitions, and I was determined to make them a reality.
The Plan
After college, I moved to New York City, ready to take the stage by storm. I had a plan: bartend to support myself, audition relentlessly, and eventually land a role on Broadway. It wasn’t a foolproof plan, but I was convinced it would work. And for a while, it did. I booked paid performing jobs, received my first paycheck, and felt like I was on track to achieving my dream.
Reality Check
But reality eventually caught up with me. I spent more time waiting for auditions than actually auditioning. I faced rejection and criticism from casting directors, and my social life suffered. I began to feel bitter, mad, and disappointed in myself. The constant “no’s” took a toll on my self-esteem, and I started to wonder if it was all worth it.
Marketability Matters
As I reflected on my experience, I realized that my theatre background had equipped me with valuable skills: I’m personable, enthusiastic, and have great endurance. I think quickly on my feet, work well under pressure, and can rock a deadline. These skills are attractive to hiring managers, and I could harness them to build a new career.
A New Chapter
I made the difficult decision to leave New York City and pursue a new path. I started graduate school, began working at a private school in Boston teaching theatre, and continued to write, direct, and perform in my free time. It wasn’t an easy transition, and I struggled with feelings of regret and betrayal. But I learned that it’s okay to separate your passion from your paycheck.
Embracing a New Reality
I’ve come to understand that not everyone can chase their dreams full-time. Most people don’t have infinite energy and resilience. It’s okay to prioritize stability, comfort, and happiness. I’ve found a sense of fulfillment in my new career, and I still get to pursue my passion on the side.
Lessons Learned
Chasing dreams is important, but it’s equally important to be realistic about the journey. Don’t be afraid to adapt and explore new paths. Remember that your passion doesn’t have to be your exact career, and that’s okay. With time, patience, and self-reflection, you can find a balance that works for you.
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