She Strengthens

Breaking Free from the Cycle of Depression and Overspending

Growing up, I was always mindful of my finances. I would save coins, avoid unnecessary purchases, and even worked hard to save my summer internship income. This frugal mindset helped me graduate college with minimal student loan debt. However, the harsh reality of the job market hit me hard, and I found myself working at Starbucks, struggling to make ends meet.

The Dark Days of Depression

During this time, I experienced my first severe bout of depression. I had struggled with it in high school, but this time, it felt overwhelming. I attributed it to my job situation, where I was working long hours for minimal pay. I sought therapy, got on antidepressants, and slowly began to recover. Eventually, I found full-time employment in an industry I loved, but the constraints of my job began to take a toll on my mental health.

The False Promise of Material Possessions

As I struggled to cope with my depression, I turned to retail therapy. I convinced myself that buying clothes, home decor, and food would bring me happiness. I spent endless hours watching HGTV, convincing myself that a perfectly designed home would solve my problems. But deep down, I knew I couldn’t afford it, and it was only making things worse.

Hitting Rock Bottom

One Sunday night, I collapsed on my bed, too exhausted to move. My boyfriend had to help me breathe, and I finally admitted, “I need help.” But my immediate concern was the cost of therapy and medication. I felt humiliated, but eventually, I asked my mom for financial assistance.

Seeking Affordable Help

I understand that not everyone has the same options, but there are ways to get help without breaking the bank. Many employers offer employee wellness programs that include mental health support. Some therapists offer discounted rates, and local community mental health services can provide affordable care.

Taking Control of My Finances

I realized that I needed to prioritize my spending on things that would genuinely help me recover. I cut back on unnecessary purchases and invested in healthy food and gym memberships. I learned to forgive myself when I slipped up and focused on making progress, not perfection.

The Ongoing Battle

Depression is a formidable foe, and it can have a devastating impact on your finances. But by taking control of my spending and seeking affordable help, I’ve been able to regain some semblance of control over my life. It’s an ongoing battle, but I’m determined to prioritize my mental health and financial well-being.