She Strengthens

The Hidden Financial Toll of Trauma

A Personal Story of Reckoning and Recovery

Last spring, my life was turned upside down when I was sexually assaulted. The experience sent my entire world into a tailspin, including my relationship with money. As someone who has struggled with mental illness since childhood, I was already familiar with the importance of seeking help. But despite my robust support system, the trauma of the assault left me feeling lost and broken.

The Desperate Search for Solace

In the aftermath of the assault, I tried everything to cope with my emotions. I sought specialized trauma counseling, increased my medication, and ramped up my meditation practice. I even spent time in psychiatric units, hoping to find some semblance of peace. But despite my best efforts, I couldn’t shake the feeling of desperation. I turned to impulsive spending as a way to momentarily escape my pain, racking up thousands of dollars in credit card debt. I knew it wasn’t a sustainable solution, but I felt hopeless.

The Weight of Debt

As a low-income individual living off disability support, I didn’t have the financial means to justify my lavish spending. I was digging myself into a deeper hole, and I knew it. But I felt trapped, unable to break free from the cycle of trauma and debt. My mental health was suffering, and I was struggling to find a way out.

A Turning Point

One day, I stumbled upon a book that would change my life. It was a finance guide that spoke to me in a way that was relatable and accessible. I devoured the book, learning about budgeting, debt repayment, and building an emergency fund. It wasn’t easy, and it took many months of hard work, but I slowly began to take control of my finances. I started using apps to track my spending, created a budget, and made a plan to pay off my debt.

The Power of Financial Literacy

Today, I’m in a radically different place with my finances. I’ve learned the basics of money management, and I’ve found empowerment in taking control of my financial situation. I still have moments of weakness, but I’ve developed the tools to recognize my mistakes and adjust my budget accordingly. It’s not perfect, but it’s progress.

The Intersection of Mental Health and Finances

My journey has taught me that mental health and finances are intimately connected. When I’m struggling with my mental health, my finances suffer. And when I’m struggling with debt, my mental health suffers. It’s a vicious cycle, but one that can be broken. By taking control of my finances, I’ve been able to find a sense of peace and stability that has helped me navigate my mental health journey.

A Message of Hope

If you’re struggling with trauma, mental health issues, or financial woes, know that there is hope. It won’t be easy, and it won’t be quick. But with hard work, determination, and the right resources, you can find a way out. Don’t be afraid to seek help, and don’t give up. You are not alone, and you are worthy of healing and recovery.

Resources

If you are dealing with thoughts of suicide, please reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 in the USA. If you have been a victim of sexual assault, you can contact RAINN at 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) within the USA. Remember, help is available, and you are not alone.