Embracing the Uncertainty of Financial Decisions
As I lay in bed during a summer vacation in the Hood River Valley, I found myself consumed by research on student loans. I was considering taking out loans to live in a dorm my sophomore year of college, but my parents were strongly opposed to the idea. They believed I could get through university without debt by living at home and working part-time. However, I wanted to experience campus life, build relationships with peers and professors, and develop my own sense of self.
The Quest for Validation
I scoured the internet for articles that would justify my decision, but all I found were conflicting opinions. Some horror stories warned of debt crippling individuals, while others suggested that small amounts of debt could be managed with planning and responsible financial decisions. I couldn’t find a single article that told me taking out student loans was the best decision for my academic, emotional, and financial well-being.
Breaking Free from External Expectations
My parents’ disapproval weighed heavily on me, but I knew I had to make a decision that was right for me. I realized that taking on student loans wasn’t a black and white problem; everyone has a different opinion, and no one knows better than the individual themselves. I had to stop seeking validation from others and trust my own instincts.
The Power of Self-Reflection
In the end, I took out the loans, and it was a decision that felt right for me. I learned that online research and seeking advice from others are important steps in the decision-making process, but ultimately, no one else can make the choice for me. I had to tune out the noise and listen to my own voice.
Lessons Learned
Today, my student loan balance is around $13,000, and I expect it to increase to $20,000 by graduation. As an English major, I know paying off my debt will take time and effort, but I’m no longer intimidated by the thought. I’ve learned to trust myself and make decisions that align with my goals and values. In a world filled with conflicting opinions, I’ve discovered the importance of self-reflection and embracing the uncertainty of financial decisions.
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